Hunter’s Mind

I feel as though I have struggled all my life with not being in sync with the world around me. 

Let me explain. I am not trying to say I'm some sort of whiz kid or some sort of supah-genius. I am just a regular guy for the most part. But I have a very active brain. And my brain demands input. And when it doesn't get input, it gets antsy.

I call this Hunter's Mind – because the most useful this state can be is when I'm sitting and waiting for something to occur, waiting on something to change. I can sit still when I am doing this. If I am engaged mentally, my Hunter's Mind can keep me still for hours.

And there are all these novelty circuits in my brain. Novelty shines through the sensory noise of everything else and suggests itself to me very quickly. 

 My brain craves the novelty, recognizes the patterns of novelty and goes after it. *Snap* Like that.

 This is not a great adaptation to living life in a civilized world. Polite society has very little need for hunter types. So I have been diagnosed with a "disorder" that is called "Attention Deficit / Hyperactivity Disorder"

I don't feel that it is a disorder. I agree that it doesn't fit this world very well. But I don't think I'm broken.